surprise

draft without her

I didn’t expect that at all, that I would slip then
They were terrible people who made beautiful things
And I would be happy to go by that name
 aspire to, even
That was the surprise. I didn’t realize
that they represented hope to me
that there was hope
that I could be beautiful too
They‘re all dead now
Him too

stimulants

Waking up to speed

Lethal for the world or me

One touch, all I need

It’s about DRUGS which will eventually probably kill me because I was born with a heart defect; I wrote it when I woke up at 6 am in the four seasons in China (for work) and took some speed and went to workout; and it was an great workout and an amazing sunrise and I was like a lil athlete / engineer / business traveling ass juggernaut